I always loved this time of year in New York. The season has a cooler, crisper feeling here in Texas, as well. Today is the Autumnal Equinox and Mabon! I’m not a Wiccan or any other religion, but I’ve always been drawn to earth religions. Pagans have more fun!
The visceral connection for Pagans has always been to celebrate and honor the body and its many desires. The seasons and the way we had to respect the earth’s cycle flowed into our own. Sex and Her gift of its bounty is something that came late in life to me—but nonetheless carries an intense response in me now.
Fall feels refreshing and new this year. I am with Him now. The gratitude I feel had me on my knees in front of Him this morning. Feeling Him cum down my throat…here in the flesh…so important to take pause to recognize, reflect, and celebrate all of it.
We haven’t had an easy time of things. Moving and ups and downs and some anxieties in both of us. But, this is us. This has always been us. Two Aries that need the fire for purification, as much as for vitality. We need the contrast. The extremes.
One year ago this time, I sat in an apartment in Arizona. A thousand miles away from Him. I could only dream of His touch and scent and love. He is here now. We are together. Nothing on this planet means more to me than this.
I sometimes joke with Him that this is just the Matrix. That nothing is real. Perhaps it is or perhaps it is not. Does it matter? It is all I know. It is all we have. So what we feel and think and breathe and dream is our truth. That is our life.
So on this day of equilibrium, this moment between summer and winter, this place between where life has been and where it is going…a moment to look deeply at where we are now. Of what it took to get here. Of how deep our well of love.
Everything good and amazing has always cum from this well. It’s the place where both He and I meet and touch. It’s our physical sex and what that has always done to our minds and hearts. It’s honoring that wet, slippery, scented heat and fire that is us.
As I walk outside today, I thank Her for the bounty of our love. Of the truth and intensity it brought to each of us. The transformation and power it has to bring us the biggest dream of our lives. I love you, Mr. Bobby, and I’m so grateful for you. I’m grateful for this life and for wherever it leads with you. Always with you.